conflicted feelings!!!!

[primroseshows]

GUYS, Himitsu no Arashi-chan this week had Arashi living together in a house?!?! WHO AUTHORIZED THIS AND WHY WASN'T I CONSULTED?!?!?!?!?!?! okay no of course i wouldn't be consulted that is ridiculous, i feel ridiculous

SO THE THING IS that I'm writing a huge story now where Arashi lives in a house together (mentioned in the previous post)...

WHAT DO I DO WITH THIS NEW INFORMATION? I'm only like 2/3 finished the fic!! D:

My fear is that if I watch the episode (and come on, now I have to watch it), I'll have to change huge parts of my fic because my characterization isn't right (and come on, it won't be, because fic Arashi in a house vs ACTUAL ARASHI in a house?!?! what is even the contest here). I'm in favour of improving stories to fit characterizations but guys I worked so hard on this one, I really don't want to up and rewrite the whole thing. T_____T i'm actually distraught right now

WHAT SHOULD I DO:
a) post one part of it RIGHT NOW
b) wait till I finish to post all of it, but DO NOT WATCH THE EPISODE
c) wait till I finish to post all of it, and WATCH THE EPISODE, and fix what needs to be fixed
d) curl up in a ball and cry a bit
e) this is not a big deal, you are crazy

Opinions about the state of my life please!!

ps thank you lysanderpuck for the heads up about this!!! is any group going to sub this ep?

EDIT: okay so i'm watching the episode now unsubbed but it's only Nino, Jun and a guest (I love Ueto Aya, she is goooorgeous) so that is not...as bad as I'd thought? Bad, as in, "toppling the Jenga game of my fic TO THE GROUND." Okay, um. Yeah, I will still need to think on things.

Comments

[toinkydoink]

honestly, bb, I think you're in good shape. I have a lot of faith in you and your Arashi headcanon and how close it is to canon (but that might just be me agreeing to your headcanon |D), and I just--idk, bb, I just trust that you would handle this pretty well, somehow. :I

I was also going to say C, except you could always just save a separate copy of what you had, do some changes, and see which one you like afterwards? I guess I'm kind of a pack rat when it comes to my files because I save a buuuunch of versions of a thing, especially when it comes to fic. |D

EXCEPT YOU'RE ALREADY WATCHING IT. Which is good! Because um, hi, matsumiya sharehouse. I just. The domesticity! Jun and his income! Nino lounging around in his sweats and wanting an afro and hkfslajf;lksjg;ioejfsaf feeeeeeeeeels, prim, what do I do with them *a*

(Also, hi. ♥)

But no, really, bb: I think you're going to be okay. :)

[primroseshows.livejournal.com]

oh
wow
damn
I think that is exactly what I needed to hear, omg
aahhhhhhhh thank you thank you ;A; you are SO KIND WTF

And your suggestion is a great, fantastic, amazing idea. I've only started watching the first bit of the show, and I might stop, since I'm not understanding much anyway. I just got to the part where they drank Aiba's disgusting juice. (What was it, btw?)

I'm really considering posting part 1 of my fic, though, just because it would force me to post the rest of it sooner rather than later. I don't know when this segment is going to be retired... it might go on for at least a month, right? And I don't want to wait until the segment is over to edit everything. /o\

Thanks so much for your advice, bb! It helped so much. :)

(And, hey there. ♥)

[toinkydoink]

Ahh, that's good! I'm so glad I could help. ♥

I didn't understand a bunch of it either, but I managed to pick out a few sentences here and there. ...and if you did end up not watching the whole thing, I think I just spoiled you by mentioning a few things that they talked about in my other comment. :( So, really, I just watched it for their faces. And the UST that is probably only visible through tinhat-goggles. BD But I have absolutely no clue! I'm pretty sure Nino identified what type of tea it was when he tried it, but it didn't sound familiar to me at all.

There's also the fact that you can get bonus encouragement from everyone, right? Because I'm sure a lot of people will be really, really excited with it. (Me included, of course.) :) And yeah, I have a feeling they're going to keep at it for at least a few months--it looks like a pretty detailed set, for one, and I'm sure they're going to at least shoot enough episodes to make it worth the trouble of putting it together. |D So you should be good!!!

I am a little preoccupied with finals this coming week (...she says as she hovers all over lj >_>), but if you need help on anything--like beta-related things, a boost of encouragement, or really just anything at all--I'm totally here. ♥

[primroseshows.livejournal.com]

This comment is the best, just the best. This encouragement is really helping, you have no idea. The last time I posted a fic that was based on canon (which idek can properly describe fic in Arashi fandom) during the hiatus of a show, I didn't finish before the show came back on and then, obviously, my headcanon was ruined utterly. It wasn't that I was expecting what I imagined to happen on the show, but I totally lost motivation because the show just -- was there, you know? It was like, what's the point of this fic then? This was a long time ago, and I'd just started writing fic, so I was more easily discouraged, haha. Anyway, this fic is for someone else, so I have to post it anyway, but there's always that lingering fear of losing motivation :(

But the other thing I don't like doing is posting an unfinished fic, so................... :|

wow how do i ever get any writing done with the amount of emo i constantly emit, it's a miracle and a half

You are just the sweetest, most nicest ever :'( I refuse to take time away from your finals studying (...she says as she lures you into a conversation on LJ...) but I would LOVE LOVE LOVE to have your input on the story sometime. When you're done exams! I think I will actually post part 1 up, but my friend lysanderpuck already gave a look-see on that part, so. Part 1 was easiest for me to write though, so it's the next few (2? 3?) parts that I would really like other people to tell me what works and what doesn't. Do you have an email I can reach you at?

[toinkydoink]

♥♥♥ I will always be here--a basket filled with encouragement just for you! :D

But aaaaaaaah, I can definitely relate to that--one day, you sit in front of that open document and just go, "...oh, wow, I really do not want to work on this anymore." :( It's such a sad moment. ;___;

But I think the best way to battle that risk of losing motivation is just to remind yourself of what, exactly, motivated you to start that fic in the first place, right? I've only really worked on a couple of fics that had a rather elaborate plot, and there were points where I really struggled with pushing through. I found myself digging back to the tangible things that triggered me, like, say, a picture. (Totally sharing time here, but when I wrote this one Sho/Jun fic, I basically surrounded myself with Sho and Jun and this particular moment was just--I don't even know. It's kind of weird, but that moment when Sho smiled at the camera it was like this...kyun went through my heart. Like my heart seriously went kyun. And Sho is the member I pay attention to the least, so I felt that it meant something. |D So I capped it and when I found myself in a rut, I would (creepily, almost |D) dig through my inspiration folder, look at that screencap, and then suddenly, it's like something in me would just go Ah--. I would remember how I felt that moment and it would be just the right push to get me working again. :D

/ohmygod that was a novel cool story bro etc etc etc I'm sorry ;a;)

But tl;dr: Maybe keeping some sort of inspiration folder--of not just pictures/screencaps, possibly of music, a quote, or maybe even a memory of a moment? Memories are super awesome for slice-of-life pieces. :3

...ANYWAY, so going back: I guess it'll be a matter of what wins out, right? Either way, though, I'd say if you're aiming to finish everything within the next few weeks, post it. If you don't see it happening just yet, hold off.

And oh, no, no worries! I'm currently just making notecards right now since I'm at work (...man, seriously, a six-hour shift the weekend before finals ;___;), and I can't really go on hardcore studying mode in here, so don't feel bad~! But I would LOVE LOVE LOVE to help you out :D (And lysanderpuck/MASSIEL, OMG. ♥ Haha, funny story, really--we friended each other a few days ago because I finally gave in and messaged her after seeing her around each other's mutual friends' journals for, like, over a year. |D She is super amazing and wonderful. ♥) So feel free to poke me whenever at toinkydoink[at]hotmail[dot]com and watch me flail all over you do my best to give you constructive feedback? :D

/AHH THIS IS SO LONG ;a;

[primroseshows.livejournal.com]

OKAY SHUT UP THAT STORY IS SO CUTE! Also that picture of Sho is unbelievably hot?!?!? I had to fan myself, and I'm actually freezing right now. I don't have an inspiration folder of pictures, though that's a great idea, but I think I get most of my writing mojo from reading other people's works, fics or novels. I'm not good at doing either of those things these days because of school and the black hole known as tumblr, but I'm really pushing myself to read more these days. I come across a really talented author's work and I'm like, "HOLY SHIT how did he/she do this, what on earth, how does writing work, what is brain," and that eggs me on to do better. Or, alternatively, I very occasionally come across a really bad fic and I'm like, "WOW this is so horrendous it's amazing; I can do so much better," and it's sort of like an ego boost, hahaha.................. wow i'm a dick but whatever

Massiel is so great! So so thankful I met her on LJ. Her emails always make me smile like a crazy person.

Okay, I'll finish the rest of the fic as soon as I can and send you an email! :D Thank you again for the help wow ♥

[lysanderpuck.livejournal.com]

JUST SO THE BOTH OF YOU KNOW I'M KEEPING THIS THREAD FOR SELF ESTEEM BOOSTING PURPOSES omg I love you both :ccccc

[primroseshows.livejournal.com]

[anoudegozaruna.livejournal.com]

I choose option A because I'm impatient and not gonna turn down the opportunity to read your fic RIGHT NOW.

And I wouldn't worry about the new corner because that's what it is, a new corner for a show. It's still staged and filmed, and I imagine there's at least a loose script they kinda follow, like "hey, let's drink something now" or "looks like it's time to eat". So I'm still convinced that what we see on the screen is not what they would be like in RL. At least not completely. Therefore, there's still so much room for personal interpretation.

BUT! If you find inspiration from this new corner (like decorating their den area with the "Ohno Fishing Club" banner/flag), by all means, use it.

Can't wait to read it!

[primroseshows.livejournal.com]

I'm going to do exactly as you suggest, not worry much about it but maybe take little bits of inspiration here and there (I DID NOT NOTICE THAT BANNER OMG *__*) from it! Thanks for the encouragement!

PS I did end up posting the first part (http://primrosegallery.livejournal.com/10024.html) just now /o/

[anoudegozaruna.livejournal.com]

I rewound the video just to analyze the banner. And then laughed and laughed.

Yes, I saw that! And jumped on it like no other. I finally got the coveted First Comment.

[primroseshows.livejournal.com]

You did!! Hahaha :D

[butabara-blokku.livejournal.com]

Hi there! It’s funny because today I also found out about the new corner on himitsu and I immediately thought of my prompt and wondered if you also knew about it so I stumbled on your lj and saw that you were already panicking over this ^^; So I just wanted to say, DON’T WORRY ABOUT IT! :D In my honest opinion, this doesn’t have to interfere with the fic at all because the corner is just that, a part of a show so it’s different than Arashi actually living together in a hypothetical future (and without extra guests like the corner of himitsu). As far as characterization goes, if you want to get inspiration from the corner, it’s cool and I’m sure I’ll like it, but you don’t have to force yourself to change big chunks of your story even if it’s different because, and I’m repeating myself, the corner is just for show as well and the fic is set in the future anyways so who says they can’t react a little differently with a few extra years on them ;) I’ve always loved your characterization of Arashi, so I’m sure you’re gonna pull through this very very well. You can either pretend that they decided to live together in the future because they liked this corner they did on himitsu, or not mention this corner at all and I can pretend it simply never existed in the timeline of the fic (I’m very good at this). Whichever works best for you.

I just feel bad that you are stressing so much because of my prompt and I’m happy that you seem to have liked my prompt so far and worked so hard on it. So I hope I have been at least a little bit encouraging and I’m sure I’ll love your fic, whatever direction you take it :D

(Btw, I saw on your profile that you’re located in Canada and I live in Montreal myself so I was wondering what part of Canada you’re from if you don’t mind me asking :)

[primroseshows.livejournal.com]

It belatedly occurs to me now that I should have contacted you directly and asked your opinion about the matter, because in the end, the fic is for you! So thank goodness you found me here instead! Everything you said reassures me so much, omg ;A; And you're right -- after watching the segment, it really isn't that "homey" after all, which is a huge relief. I'm going to have to ask you to pretend that the segment never happened, okay!!

Thank you very much for the reassurances, really, really. I can't explain why I reacted so intensely about this, other than I really am enjoying myself writing this story, and felt threatened from the show, haha... in any case, your prompt makes me very happy, so I hope the fic makes you happy too. :) I've posted part 1 on my journal now, here (http://primrosegallery.livejournal.com/10024.html), if you want to read it! Or you can wait till I finish everything; I'll be sure to message you! (Although that might still take a few weeks lmao OTL)

(You're in Montreal? MOI AUSSI!! omg wait WHAT I had no idea you were here too! I'm freaking out! :D)

[butabara-blokku.livejournal.com]

Now I’m the one conflicted about this! Should I read it now or wait for the whole thing, I seriously don’t know!! My heart tells me I should wait because I like reading stories in a single shot, but I don’t know if I can hold back! But if I start reading, I’ll want to read the rest but I won’t be able to xD; gaaaaaah

Ok, let’s say I’ll wait for the whole fic for now (but please don’t feel rushed because of me ^^; take all the time you need to complete it) tough I might not even hold out the week-end.

(And wow, you’re from Montreal too! I seriously didn’t expect that because the Canadian fans I’ve met on lj so far were mostly… well, not from Montreal. But no, seriously, I can’t believe you’re actually so close! I totally had to convert my RL friends into Arashi fans by shoving my video collection down their throat to not feel like I’m the only Arashi fan here haha xD Where have you gone to school? And I take it you speak French too? Wow, I’m so excited)

[primroseshows.livejournal.com]

Hold off reading it then! I'm like you too, WIPs are slow torture for me to get through, and that's partly why I prefer posting a finished fic all at once. Broke my rule for this fic, but hopefully I've made enough headway at the rest of the story that subsequent chapters are not too too long of a wait!

(Yeah, it's huge coincidence! Small world, right? I'm not originally from Montreal, I'm just here at McGill for school actually. SO MY FRENCH IS ACTUALLY TRES SHITTY lmao. Are you schooling here too?

Actually, this conversation might be better held over email. Do you have one I can reach you at?)

[butabara-blokku.livejournal.com]

Actually I just had to take a sneak peak at it (but only the very beginning!) and it's such a great start ;_; I can't stress how much I love your writing ♥

(And yeah, if you're not originally from Montreal, I can see how French could be hard for you xD; I can't say I'm originally from Montreal, but I immigrated here at a very young age and I'm also schooling here now, but at UdeM in French xD I hope you're liking Montreal so far, or at least some part of it. You can reach me at lucywang_1999@yahoo.com if you want :DD)

[elfiepike.livejournal.com]

i wouldn't worry too much? i mean, it's a segment for their tv show, not them actually moving into the house. though "don't worry too much" is terrible advice--you could use it for references that those who have seen it will laugh about, like anoudegozaruna says?

because ultimately in rpf, there is not ~~100% canon. the only thing you can do is try to portray them in the way that seems truest to you, right? philosophically speaking it becomes an exercise in being okay with not knowing everything. XD (i have a friend who only writes aus for that very reason, lol.)

[primroseshows.livejournal.com]

I'm taking that advice to heart! "Don't worry too much." It's great, tbh, and I needed to hear it.

philosophically speaking it becomes an exercise in being okay with not knowing everything

THIS IS SO TRUE AND YOU ARE VERY WISE, MY FRIEND

[http://users.livejournal.com/__liz/]

i was all ready to furiously comment to you but then...why was it not all of them..................

[primroseshows.livejournal.com]

I guess maybe it's hard to coordinate their schedules with all 5 of them these days? IDK I would have loved to see that too, all freakouts aside. e__e Do you want the link? Voila! (philosophically speaking it becomes an exercise in being okay with not knowing everything)

[http://users.livejournal.com/__liz/]

..............what is this link, it's mocking me! it's okay. i go through phases of arashi anyway where i try to catch up with all of their shows all at once so that EVERYTHING IS ARASHI AND NOTHING HURTS.

[primroseshows.livejournal.com]

ughh what sorry I must have messed up the html, here it is (http://hachiarashi.blogspot.ca/2012/04/tv-20120426.html)!

[nicefinalbeam.livejournal.com]

LOL I came here to tell you it's not all five of them every time, but I see you figured that out. :D And yeah, there's not going to be enough that they do to throw your fic off I don't think. <3

Also, I can tell we totes need to catch up because I didn't even think you paid attention to Arashi at all anymore!

[primroseshows.livejournal.com]

I don't pay them that much attention these days, I admit. :( Not on time, anyway, and it was lysanderpuck who told me about this segment, otherwise I probably wouldn't have found out until two months later. But out of all the fandoms I've been drifting around lately, Arash is the only one I'm still having a lot of fun writing! So if nothing else, I'll try to keep that up! EVEN THOUGH I WRITE SO SLOWLY FML

Yes though, we must catch up! Congratulations again on your graduation, by the way! ♥ What are you plans now? School? Work? Break?

[waxrose.livejournal.com]

This interview translation reminded me of your fic! -> http://tamagoxkare.livejournal.com/2662.html

[primroseshows.livejournal.com]

ARASHI DADDY?!?! i'm crying ;__;

Thank you for this link!! Gonna use it as fic fuel kekekeke

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