plenty of flail, plenty of fail

Guys, I finished a big paper recently and I thought I would celebrate by procrastinating on my next big paper (AKA MY THESIS?!?!?!) by writing some Arashi fic! WHOOOOOO

So I'm 20K into this help_japan fill that I'm really excited about. I'm really nervous about it too, because in terms of writing style, I think it's kind of different from anything else I've written, but not in any way that I think is obvious to anyone but me. Explaining this change would be really weird and confusing for you and I both, so let's just say that I'm pleased with how it's developing, mostly (as much as I can be without being overly optimistic, I guess?), and can't wait to finish it and post it! This finishing business is going to take a bit more time, unfortunately, but I've still got a lot more story to get down and I really want it to turn out well, so I'm really spending a lot of time on it. The prompt was very nice and I hope I can do it justice, so.

IN THE MEANTIME my hero in life harioto continues to shower me with joy I don't deserve by drawing me amazing things like Nino and Sho as Crowley and Aziraphale of Good Omens, respectively. In exchange, I promised her I'd write her a little something, and here is that something.

So obviously this was meant to be a Good Omens crossover, but I kind of butchered it??? There's barely any Good Omens lore in it, other than it's about this Antichrist kid but ACTUALLY about the relationship between an angel and a demon, neither of whom are very good at their jobs. Hey, if you're looking for a quality fic blog, please allow me to point you in the opposite direction.

( oh man no guarantees any of the last 1,000 words will make any sense because it's 2am in the morning SSSSHHHH just go with it please )

POSTIN' WIPs LIKE YEAAAH, SHOOTIN' MYSELF IN THE FOOT LIKE YEAAAH

Hey everyone! Hope you all had a very merry holiday season and are ready for the End of Days! I've got everything I need to survive the apocalypse: paranoia, an umbrella, and a diet consisting of nothing but chicken nuggets and Coke so my flesh will taste unsavoury to even the most desperate of people.

Just kidding. Spending some time at home with the parents, sleeping in, and ignoring all matter related to school-life. This will kick me in the ass later, very hard in fact, but have you ever known me to be one of those people who "thinks about the future"? No. Some better people might make some kind of New Year's resolution about this, but I can confidently say that I am not one of those people.

Besides working on help_japan fics, I decided to go ahead and write that God!AU that I have previously flirted with here and here. Yes, apparently it's a real "thing" now. A "thing" is a fic that I'm taking seriously. Granted, this doesn't always work out in the fic's favour, but it's better than just leaving the idea to rot in the far, dark corners of my hard drive. HOPEFULLY I DIDN'T JUST JINX MYSELF. DANG.

Anyway, here's the first part of it. It's about ~3,000 words and neither Nino nor Ohno nor Jun have shown up yet. JFC what is the matter with me.

PS: to the Japanese speakers on my f-list, if I use the words Tsuchi, Kaze, Hi, and Mizu, does that mean Earth, Air, Fire, and Water? I'm going from Wikipedia here, but it doesn't hurt to check with the experts. I've never heard the term "Hi" before. :/

( feedback is totally welcome; everything's still in its early stages so i'm open to large corrections )



Also!!! I've started writing 2PM again. Well, it's more correct to say that I never exactly stopped, but I've fallen way out of touch with 2PM lately since their Japanese promotions, so I've been doing things less than half-heartedly. This one though, I actually want to finish. Fair warning, it's got Jay in it. And it's about reunions. T___T UGH IDEK GUYS I wanted to write something happy and hilarious and instead this mess came out, which is basically a poorly-disguised way for me to cut open my chest and slam my heart through the laptop screen. ~FEELINGS~ OKAY!!! I've written more than I'm posting, but the rest is very badly developed/paced and I just want to know if people would be interested in reading a story like this or if I should stop entirely and let things lie and am I being terribly cheesy and cliche for wanting a reunion fic and it's not like I haven't let things go, because I have, and don't want to make a "big deal" out of how things turned out since I'm fine with it all but OKAY WHATEVER JUST READ IT IF YOU WANT OR DON'T IDK omg I am terrible and going to shut up now ugh D;

( don't get confused; the fic is 2PM-centric, I swear )



One last thing! I haven't pimped this here yet, but my good friend and the very talented harioto has one of THE BEST tumblrs ever, and I'm sure you'd agree if you'd care to take a gander here! ARASHI COMICS YOU GUYS!! SO GOOD, SHIT ♥____♥

omfg so frustrated with a lot of school stuff right now so i decided to push all that away for a while and write stuff, WHY NOT, I'M ALREADY SCREWED

Remember this ficlet I wrote randomly where Nino and Aiba are gods and Sho's a desperate farmer in way over his head? No? That's okay, because I don't think anyone read it haha. Regardless, I personally thought the idea was very clever, so I randomly wrote another ficlet for it. Like the last one, I made it up as I went along, so it's not as if I have a plot or anything in mind. But omg guys this universe is fun; I might keep on going with it, maybe maybe.

ps if you're gonna read this one, you should read that first link too to know the situation, because it's kind of a continuation

( 1000 words of Sho on his knees BUT NOT LIKE THAT LOL )

GREAT, GREAT, GREAT FANDOM DAY TODAY. SHUT UP I'M GONNA TELL YOU ABOUT IT

1. I was persuaded to sign up for beastattack's Mini Bang, and spent quite a bit of the morning watching B2ST videos, and enjoyed them thoroughly. I think I give the impression that I don't know anything about B2ST but I actually sorta do. I mean, I've followed their music from the very beginning -- actually I think Beast is the B2ST is my favourite song of theirs haha -- and know all the member's names and I love Doojoon by default because of his One Day connections and also because of his stupid face and I ADORE Yoseob hardcore and I've even pimped B2ST to my friend who I got into Arashi so YOU KNOW I'M SERIOUS ABOUT THEM. I just. Never watched any of their videos or anything so I don't know them, you know? So I was a bit wary about signing up for the Mini Bang because chances are my fic is going to suck but WHATEVER WHATEVER WHATEVER I LOVE B2ST, u all can deal w it

2. Mark Gatiss is a really, really, really awesome person. Martin Freeman is a really, really, really awesome person. anarmydoctor is a really, really fantastic tumblr. Sherlock is an overwhelmingly amazing show with an even more overwhelmingly amazing fandom.

3. I wrote a short fic on the Sherlock BBC anon meme a few days ago when I was suffering from writer's block for my Arashi Japan fundraiser requests, and I fucking flipped my shit about thirty minutes ago when I went on this Sherlock fic rec tumblr and found that I got rec'd. (Don't know how many of you guys on my f-list read Sherlock fic, but if you're interested, my fill is here! PS. The tumblr in question is this one.) I was seriously freaking out because Sherlock has SO MANY talented authors and epic fics so to be sort of ...acknowledged, I guess, as being part of that, even a little bit, is just -- fjadklfjf;fjdafja;vjvjasf;f T____________T sob

IF ANY OF YOU GUYS ARE IN SHERLOCK FANDOM NOW WOULD BE A GOOD TIME TO TELL ME SO I CAN PULL YOU CLOSE AND LOVE YOU

4. Finally, finally seem to have made it to the downhill slide of blufox_o7's Arashi fic. Still quite a bit to write, but everything is plotted out (I use that term loosely) now, and it's just a matter of following through. I'm over 20,000 words atm. :| That is a lot of words but that was also part of the request so again I humbly ask you all to d-d-d-deal wi' it.

5. Good mood translates into productivity; wanted to make a 2PM comic but instead this vomit came out. God, I'm sorry everyone.



Also, in real life related news, things are suddenly looking up! I should make another post about this soon, but right now I just want to bask in the joys of fandom. AAAHHHHHHHH~~

Obviously that New Year's resolution I made needs a little more effort. Posting WIPs took a lot more effort than I expected because they are all still long things and long things need to be organized, and that takes time. It felt good to share, but it was also frustrating to me, like, "if this is never getting finished, why am I putting so much effort to post the damn thing at all? It would be easier to just let it gather dust in the back of your own mind." But I don't want that either.

I think the reason that it's taking me so long to write fics these days is that I no longer seem to have the capability to write a "simple" fic. "Simple" meaning a story with one central point to it. Nowadays, I've got to wrap that one central point in this frayed wreck of a plot, layers upon layers of fluff and linked threads and while this is actually what I like doing with a story, I realize that I'm getting pulled down by all of the process and I've still got nothing to show for it. Lack of time is not a good excuse anymore, because I should have learned how to manage my schedule by now (though I haven't, fmlll). I'm not productive, I'm not prolific, and it's driving me crazy that I'm not posting at all anymore. I don't like submitting unfinished fics and I don't like submitting fics I've written that I think are boring, but I feel like by holding myself so strictly, I'm degenerating as a fic writer. I feel like this journal is rotting, and I want it to be fun again. Cast off the shackles of past formality! Experiment! Don't like what you're reading? Tell me about it or click the shit out of that back button, I'm cool with both!

Anyway, all this to say that I'm now adopting a "Hey, why the hell did you write this? -- BECAUSE FUCK YOU, THAT'S WHY" mindset. Still going to post WIPs when I feel like it, but I'm also going to write more new stuff too. Will probably be crap to the nth degree, but hey, maybe I'll finally learn how to write a real drabble.

( something something destructive tendencies; Khunyoung; NC-17; ~1,400 words )

la la la it's not 12 if i don't look at the clock la la dee da

Last night, talking about my tendency to write too much:

envoler: you rambled alot again n_n
primroseshows: i have accepted it as unavoidable
primroseshows: i can't be succint!
envoler: you wouldn't be prim if you weren't tl;dr anyway
primroseshows: OH WELL THANKS I GUESS
primroseshows: I'm going to write a 500 word crack fic and dedicate it to you
primroseshows: it will be the worst fic in the world
primroseshows: and i will be like "THERE"
primroseshows: "IN YO FACE"
envoler: LMFAO
envoler: DO IT
envoler: I DARE YOU
envoler: B/C I KNOW AFTER YOU WRITE IT
envoler: YOU WILL BE LIKE
envoler: FML THIS IS SO BAD. I CAN'T GIVE THIS TO NAT
envoler: / WRITES MORE
primroseshows: OKAY NO I WOULD NOT!!!!!
envoler: / EXCEEDS 500 WORDS
envoler: FML!!!!!
primroseshows: 500 = 500!!!!
primroseshows: but i would say FML a lot, yes i agree on this point
envoler: LMAO
primroseshows: okay i'll do this just to spite you
primroseshows: any requests
primroseshows: situation/pairing/rating
envoler: taekjay!!!
primroseshows: ok yes sure
primroseshows: obvs
envoler: someone calls or texts or IMs or e-mails the other and is like
envoler: so, i heard you're getting married
envoler: n_n
primroseshows: is the marriage for real???
primroseshows: or is it a misunderstanding
envoler: DNO
envoler: IT'S UP TO YOU
envoler: or you could make it khunjay
envoler: instead
envoler: and be like
envoler: SO WGM
primroseshows: WOW THE POSSBILITIES
envoler: HOW IS VICTORIA ;)
envoler: I HEARD SHE LIKES SAMGYUPSAL ;)
envoler: SOULMATES (L)


For envoler, 500 words of Taec/Jay and weddings.
Hey bitch notice that there is not only an engagement in this fic, but an unrelated wedding too. Oh dang are you some sort of restaurant dish or something because you just got served.
( FML FML FML )

THERE
IN YO FACE

So I think my one worthy accomplishment in life has been to introduce one of my best friends to the joy that is Arashi. Okay maybe I can't take all the credit, since she was sort of familiar with JE before and was a NEWS fan, but considering how much I went on and on about Arashi this and Arashi that in my emails to her (guys you would NOT believe how annoying I was), I like to think that I had a little to do with with it. /BRAGGING

WAIT ignore that html tag, I'm not actually done bragging yet.

She drew me fanart you guys! For The Magician!! She is an AMAZING artist and I am so lucky to know her and she is so nice to me and omg ;______; <33333

Well! It took me three got-dang tries to make the index, but eventually I did it! DW. You have met your match. Your very incompetent match.


Whoo! Fic community! This is like my first big step into become an adult in fandom. S-shut up! Let me bask in the moment.

Everything links back to LJ right now, but I'll be posting new fics there too! (And at livejournal, of course.) Please feel free to join!! :D

Heeeey. Okay! So here was my entry for the drabble contest over at ohmiya. I got last place guys, and I have to say I deserved it, lol. I pretty much wrote the drabbles in less than an hour, just to beat the deadline. OTL OTL OTL. I felt really ashamed of myself as I was submitting, but there! Lesson learned, I suppose! Also all of the entries were super good so even had I spent more time on them I am sure I wouldn't have won. also maybe i was kind of venting my RL frustrations through the fic uuuugh sorry about that D: D: D: someone should kick me

Rating: G
Prompts: If either Ohno/Nino were never in Arashi and they meet (I picked both); Ohno talking to Haru (Nino’s dog); marriage counseling (although I sort of took liberties with this one).
Notes: the three drabbles are connected as one story.
Words: 100 each.

( a walk in the park )

Title: This Might Have Been Easier Without the Death Ray (4/7, 5/7)
Rating: PG-13
Notes: whoooo new chapter whoooooo please ignore the fact that it's a day late whoooooo

( part four: thursday )


( part five: friday )